i need it

Gerberas 

 Roses

 Tiger Lily

k

Krisan




hopes somebody would buy me these flowers

bizarre love triangle

Everytime I think of you, I feel shot right through with a bolt of blue

It's no problem of mine, But it's a problem I find

Living a life that I can't leave behind

But there's no sense in telling me

The wisdom of the fool won't set you free

But that's the way that it goes

And it's what nobody knows

well every day my confusion grows

Every time I see you falling

I get down on my knees and pray

I'm waiting for that final moment

You say the words that I can't say

I feel fine and I feel good

I'm feeling like I never should

Whenever I get this way

I just don't know what to say

Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday

I'm not sure what this could mean

I don't think you're what you seem

I do admit to myself that if I hurt someone else

Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be

Every time I see you falling

I get down on my knees and pray

I'm waiting for that final moment

You say the words that I can't say

ya allah ini lagu gue banget deh subhanallah gimana caranya gue harus ngungkapinnya ?
gue ga pengen nyakitin siapa siapa. heeem gue pengen banget bilang 'boy I love you. and I need you SO BAD ' but everybody's know that I can't tell him like that god please it's such a crazy day! 

that's should be ME !

Everybody's laughing in my mind, rumors spreading 'bout this other guy,

Do you do what you did when you did with me?

Does he love you the way I can?

Did you forget all the plans

that you made with me?  'cause baby I didn't!

That should be me, Holdin' your hand,

That should be me Makin' you laugh,

That should be me, This is so sad,

That should be me, That should be me,

That should be me, Feelin' your kiss,

That should be me, Buyin' you gifts,

This is so wrong, I can't go on,

Till you believe that, That should be me

That should be me, Yeah,

You said you needed a little time

For my mistakes, It's funny how you used that time

To have me replaced,

Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies

Whatcha doin' to me,

You're takin' him where we used to go,

Now if you're tryin' to break my heart,

It's working 'cause you know that,...

That should be me, Holdin' your hand,

That should be me Makin' you laugh,

That should be me, This is so sad,

That should be me, That should be me,

That should be me, Feelin' your kiss,

That should be me, Buyin' you gifts,

This is so wrong, I can't go on,

Till you believe that, That should be me

I need to know should I fight. For our love or disharm?

It's getting harder to shield. This pain in my heart!!!

Never should've let you go,! I never should've let you go,!

That should be me!! Never should've let you go

That should be me!!

that's should be me by justin bieber
this song sound amazing. (y)

i remember by mocca

I remember...The way you glanced at me, yes I remember
I remember...When we caught a shooting star, yes I remember
I remember.. All the things that we shared, and the promise we made, just you and I
I remember.. All the laughter we shared, all the wishes we made, upon the roof at dawn

Do you remember..?
When we were dancing in the rain in that december
And I remember..When my father thought you were a burglar
I remember.. All the things that we shared, and the promise we made, just you and I
I remember.. All the laughter we shared, all the wishes we made, upon the roof at dawn

I remember.. The way you read your books,
yes I remember
The way you tied your shoes,
yes I remember
The cake you loved the most,
yes I remember
The way you drank you coffee,
I remember
The way you glanced at me, yes I remember
When we caught a shooting star,
yes I remember
When we were dancing in the rain in that december
And the way you smile at me, yes I remember

forgive me..

see, eeem well,

maafin aku karna aku egois
egois dalam banyak hal..
maafin aku juga karna aku cuek
lebih mentingin diri sendiri dan ga pernah mikirn perasaan kamu

maafin aku karna aku jarang perduli sama kamu.
kadang justru aku ga inget sama sekali soal kamu

maafin aku karna aku sering bikin kamu khawatir
 karna aku yang suka ceroboh dalam melakukan banyak hal.
maafin aku aku sering ga mikirin kamu
karna aku lupa sama janji

maafin aku banget karna aku kurang komunikasi ke kamu
well jarang banget aku ngehubungin kamu buat ngasih tau gimana keadaan aku sekarang.
dan maafin aku juga, aku terlalu ngebebasin kamu sampe (mungkin) kamu ngerasa ga punya pacar.

maafin aku juga,
karna aku ngerasa ga layak banget jadi pacar kmu.
maaf yah karna aku suka bikin kamu marah bikin kamu kesel bikin kamu ketar-ketir
sementara aku ga mikirin kamu gimana di sana.

maafin aku juga aku udah ga percaya lagi sama kamu,
padahal kamu cuma melakukan kesalahan kecil.

dan masih banyaaaaaaak lagi hal yang pengen aku kasih tau..
cuma aku ga bisa..
aku takut  dan aku memang ga mau..
maafin aku karna selama ini aku banyak bnget ngerahasiain hal hal yang seharusnya kamu tau

friday , 16 july 2010

looks like we made it took all nite long. done the journey. than we celebrate it together, pour the wine make it fun..
babe, I will concentrated in you, you know, what ever you wanted just ask me and you knw i'll do.

you can take my hand and i will hold it tight.
we'll trought a long misty nite and we'll found a gorgeous dawn..
you might sleep in my arms..

but who're them ? why they taking me away ? why they waste me ? run babe, run..
they make me cant stand up..

they say i bet leave you but i wont. they say i bet leave you but i wont.
i wont leave you because i love you.  even you make me mad and angry
oh baby you know what i say you know what i mean you know what to do
and i think im in love with you
please stay near me. got every rite and you've been actin lately has been off the way
especially their ettitude
i feel stupid and i'm prayin' all the things between us gonna be alrite
like yesterday i remember you like yesterday i remember all the memories we've made like yesterday
you gonna miss me like i miss you.. but it no matter for me ..

winter white ..

kadang orang ga mikir apa yang di laluinnya itu adalah sebuah anugrah.
kadang juga orang itu adalah gue sendiri.
gue ga pernah mikir apa kira kira yang akan gue hadapin ini dan keputusan yang gue ambil ini udah bener ato belom.
gue males cape. kadang kadang gue pengen lari , tapi lari dari kenyataan itu pengecut namanya. gue ga mau jadi pengecut.
cukup tau gimana ini. siapa dia. apa hubungannya sama gue. dan biarin berlalu.
memang salah kalo gue ngejudge dia secara terus terusan. tapi gue kesel.
gue pengen teriak. gue MUAK ! hal yang paling gue benci di lakuin lagi.
gue memang bukan cewe yang kuat kayak orang tau.
gue mamang cuek, tapi gue lebih suka meratiin orang dari pada di peratiin.tapi bukan berarti gue ga suka.
gue memang bukan orang yang ramah dalam hidup gue sendiri.
kadang guemarah. tapi itu luapan emosi gue yang gue sendiri ga kuat buat di tahanin.
gue nangis bukan buat ngeluarin senjata termpuh gue, tapi justru ngeluarin senjata terakhir.
gue nangis bukan karna gue cengeng, tapi karna gue udah ga sanggup nahanin pertahanan gue.
gue nangis bukan karna gue mau keliatan lemah, tapi karna gue udah ga kuat teru terusan ngebohongin diri kalo gue itu kuat.
kapan lo bisa ngerti kalo gue itu butuh elu. gue pengen lo disini.
gue memang suka sama lo tapi kadang gue berharap lebih.
gue ga sadar yang gue lakuin ini udah nyakitin gue sendiri dan juga elo. dan cewe itu
tapi gue pengen lo tau kalo gue marah!
gue gamau gue terus terusan dianggep angin buat lo.
ini harapan terakhirgue kalo lu tau gue sayang sama lo..
banyak orang bilang gue bodoh. dan ya, gue memang bodoh. percaya dengan semua kata kata lo.
percaya dengan semua tingkah lo yang gue sendiri ga tau bener apa engga.
lo bohongin gue. gue selalu terima. tapi gue udah ga kuat. maaf kalo gue nyimpen satu rahasia,
gue ga mau lu tau soal ini
lo cukup tau kalo gue baik baik aja..
matahari ga selalu terang.
lu kayak matahari yang selalu nerangin gue, tapi terlalu silau buat gue liat.
dan air ga selamanya jernih.
kadang terkontaminasi sama polusi.
udara juga ga selalu ngebuat gue lega tapi justru kadang ngebikin gue sesak.
4 musim dateng dan gue pun pergi.
3 musim pergi tapi gue terlambat buat tau.
1 musim 1 rasa dan itu ga ada..